I Eat Shit and Pretend to Like it.

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1. I'll respond with something I like about you.
2. I'll tell you what song reminds me of you.
3. I'll name something we should do together.
4. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
5. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.

Dear Boston, You used to be so exciting and now you suck. Bring back the awesomeness please...Even warm weather is not helping you or I. Former Love, Alison

There are ten rooms in my house and they are all empty except for the one I am in with the tv on mute. Someone rang my doorbell at midnight and I almost considered answering because, it is so cold and lonely here. It feels like tension has accrued on the walls the way thick smoke stains and leaves awful nonsensical patterns. I keep thinking of what everyone else is or may be doing right now and I hope they are doing better then I am now...

Max and Dave are on some desert in California shooting a film (I wish I was there instead of in Boston)
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Kate is home in bed feeling sick probably reading a book about cognitive science
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Cole is probably in Sherborn(?) and wishing he were in NYC instead
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Sarah is in Connecticut with her mother and step dad and pondering what it would be like if her father were still alive and why her boyfriend never calls her back.
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Peter Droste is in Needham up late talking to some girl that has become completely smitten with him
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Kindra is in arizona either at a party and having an awkward run-in with her ex or fighting with her mother and I sincerely hope she stops to think of how much better off she is having moved out of that hole and to Boston
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Pete is at a bar him and his friends go to every year when he goes back to Western Massachusetts and probably getting really fucked up and saying how much he hates me and wants me to die
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Tyler is drunk and having a good time but annoyed that people are being loud at his parents house
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Spud is just hating everyone because his friends are really bad at calling him back
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Daniel is in Istanbul asleep in a hostile snoring really loudly while people throw shit at him to make him stop
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Tina is at Tyler's house hanging out because staying at her fathers drives her insane
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Andrew is totally stoned at his parents house
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Matt is in connecticut at his parents house and having an awful time because he would rather be in DC
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Kris is sleeping at her mothers house and dreaming of Baltimore
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Hollie is probably home but wishing she were not or how she is going to be up for another six hours
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Caty is in North Hampton and I'm not sure what she is up to these days but, I wish I had an idea of besides what crosses my mind and hope she is happy
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Collin is wasted on tequila at some party in Ft. Myers and forgetting to call me back
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Tim is in North Carolina drinking whiskey and crooning over a girl that broke his heart.I want to visit him so badly
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My great aunt is in the ICU with an amputated leg and slipping in and out of consciousness and dreaming of memories that I have never learned about
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My Father is probably awake and smoking a cigarette whilst thinking of where everyone has gone
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My mother is asleep with her eyes opened partially because she does that and it has always freaked me out. a lot.

So I have two extra tickets to a Cat Power show at The berklee Performance Center on February 18th so...if you were thinking of purchasing tickets just buy mine! They're good clean mezzanine seats too...

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she just doesn't know it yet.



yayy again...

I was bit by my favorite pet...why do I go through all this shit again and I came here to be angry but only shaved lion kitties and kissy attacks come out?!?!I'll do this later when I'm...maybe not


Who needs anyone when you can just rock out...there goes my eye contact for a while now...only big shades so you cannot see what I'm looking at or when I'm looking away...
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shhhh
shhhhh
did you hear what she said? did you? ....
time to get drunk with my most favorite people in the universe....

I would really appreciate it if anyone has any extra cell phones/parts/batteries/chargers etc. to give them to me. There is a new charity in Brookline that gives these phones to victims of domestic abuse/womens shelters so they can call 911, abuse hotlines etc. so the calls do not show up on their phone bills. Please leave me a message if you have any.

anything will help!
thanks a bunch

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Pete has a frickin lj. add him. you love it. crazypete81

I'm not exactly sure where this is going since it has been a long time. Honestly, I am ok. I don't even know who reads this anymore but, I need some release. I feel far surer about my life right now then I ever have. Professors want to tutor and/or sponsor me if i can't gather enough scholarships. One of them has parkinson's disease and i felt selfish for wanting him(prof. Levin) to expend energy on me. Levin says that he needs to teach again because it is his purpose; reason for breathing. I am nervous but this makes my heart pace quicken.

My art makes me feel on the brink of some caring version of freedom. washing me clean with its signs and colors that open me up to the indifference of the universe. I am happy even with my slow yet fruitful progress.

I don't think Pete believes in my potential. my motivation. my goals. and all of my ambitions. This is all I have so far but it has taken me a long time to get here on my own. I feel better then ordinary people wasting their parents time and money on education when I am capable of obtaining one for almost free and on my own convictions. There is more then a grammatical reason behind capitalizing "I" when referring to myself. I've done things differently then a lot of my peers but I am better off on my own . I hope. I believe. I am not unequal to any of you and maybe you feel the same as I do. maybe not. This entry may be flawed and not just grammatically but, I don't want to change these mistakes because they are real.

Alison

If I opened my mouth to scream sunbeams and bunnies would fly out.

#3 Parker hill terrace apt #2
Boston, MA 02120

Dear Friends,
I am going to be in Umass/Hampshire area this weekend. if you would like to spend some time leave a comment/track me down/ or something...I have to finish this fucking paper on Calvanism. gross. I'm all ballsed out of my mind because I got two hours of sleep and worked seven to two this morning and now I have to write a paper then class six to nine. I want to go home and work on more gallery sketches/multi-media excess leakage from my brain for Fred. He really loves what I've showed him and wants me to do moremoremore. which makes me really happy and gives me some confidence but.
1.)It's still a gallery in yuppiesville Wellesley...
which may be really retarded and not worth the effort. I need to call Reuter and get back into the artist guild again. I loved being part of such an awesome community last year.
I'm getting a cell phone this weekend....
Living by myself is one of the BEST things I have ever done.
I have a semi friend crush on a boy I've only met three times(and he turned out to be 27. but i don't even give a freaking shit. Any man that can talk about quantum theory,great books,great music,etc=radomatic. for fucking serious).This weekend is going to rock my lame ass hard.

Love,
Alison K. Silletti

XoXO

My Dearest,
We only spoke only three times when you were home which includes two brief encounters. Every time so hostile. When we hugged goodbye on tuesday it felt like the last time. never could I have imagined what a stranger you would become. it made me so upset to see you;face to the ground on all proverbial fours to addiction. a situation beyond control. now you have a girlfriend that has the same unsatisfied hunger you are so cruel. your neediness. everytime you asked me to find something;anything to feed your unhappiness. wondering whether it would be more upsetting to hear you admit a problem and not have the smallest concern or just to not see anything wrong at all? I wish I could burn hlaf the memories of you and me between August and now. cut and paste out the anger. I was awake until 5am wednsday morning. resentment and growing up and away had thickened my tear ducts from working for the past two months until then. I still want to finish your gift; I am almost finsished but now the inital reasons have changed. I wish I could build something to take your mistakes from you. mine as well. all I can do now is hopethat she has the patience. the love.( not a shot at her but i only got to know her for five days in october so i can't really judge her character from that). nights that you can't sleep she/someone else will be there to hold your bad luck hand. it would've been nice to have actually talked with you but you showed no interest to be near me. maybe next summer roles will be changing and then we can atleast trade material things. I wish you the best. I will always give you my best whenever I can.

Sincerely,
Alison K. Silletti

I lost my book for my fucking English 102 class so I can't read my homework right now! damnit.....
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so much to say and such little patience~....~
not having a computer in my apartment is way more rad then I had ever thought possible....but I could usesome furniture..NO BEAN BAG CHAIRS THOUGH...
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I would call you but I don't know what to say other then I hope your not gonna yell at me more the next time we talk. hope you are doing well....
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Cole is my new BFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF X a million
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..Have spent a lot of quality time with Dinsky and Eric....lots of fun...
.."Imust be the messiah, he puked wine right? so do I!".
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Pasion of The Christ is lamecore....
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love for you all...
call da pad 508-620-1626(dont leave a message though i don't know the password for my machine...long story).
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I sent a can of vienna sausages to heaven...I am a saint. they would've sat on that shelf for years but now they are with god and probably with e. coli too....

I <3 Hampshire

I pick up the keys to my studio tomorrow....goddamn I am so hot...

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Leaving in a half hour to look at my first potential apartment in Framingham. Attempting to polish up my negotiating skills at such an early hour(for me atleast) by making up conversations in my mind with the landlord...
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Finally finished You Shall Know Our Velocity by Eggers last night...highly recommended to all of you but, if you get the abridged version with Hand's conceptual thinking inserted between Will's Sunday night and Monday morning don't read it until the end...he denounces most of all credibility possessed by Will and just spoils the fun of the implementation of a very entertaining fictitious characters...
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more on that later after work I suppose.Wish me luck..
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Go PATS!!!!

1.) Get a photographer to do your suicide girls photo shoot